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28. Silence
“Five minutes until we need to be out the door for the Herrera show.” I shove in a new pair of studs and crouch—carefully, so I don’t rip...

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Apr 138 min read


27. Lagerfeld’s Ghost and Other Problems
“I really wish you hadn’t done that, Andy.” I step onto the sidewalk and press my phone tighter to my ear, weaving through the crowd...

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Apr 128 min read


The Void
I sit on the rough stone, tracing doodles I can’t even see. There’s really not much else to do when you're falling through a void, a slab...

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Apr 113 min read


26. Ten, Nine, Eight …
It’s packed tonight. Bluefin is wall-to-wall with sushi platters, glittery drinks, and people dressed to celebrate in their own style....

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Apr 105 min read


25. Chew or Choke
When did holiday dinners start feeling like interrogations? “Cancel culture has gone too far,” Gammie huffs. “All my friends’ grandkids...

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Apr 96 min read


24. The New Jersey Curse
New Jersey is fucking cursed . I’m a sweaty mess, sprinting to Gate 63. There’s no way I’m making it. It’s not like I didn’t plan...

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Apr 85 min read


23. A Change in Focus
After three nights of editing with Miranda at the townhouse, you’d think I’d be past the strangeness of it. And mostly, I am. Just like...

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Apr 75 min read


22. Papercuts
Legal meetings are a lot like papercuts. You don’t notice the sting until you’re already bleeding. I don’t say a word the entire...

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Apr 64 min read


21. Out Loud
In college, two months felt like forever. I was a different person between the first day of classes and midterms. Now, two months is...

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Apr 55 min read


20. Scratching the Surface
Just five more steps, I tell myself, panting and sweating through my winter coat. Just four more steps and I’ll never have to move ever...

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Apr 47 min read


19. Small Miracles
“She did what?” Doug sputters, laughing. I lounge back on his sofa—way comfier than the one I picked up off the side of the road and...

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Apr 34 min read


18. Stormy Seas
I’m scrolling through apartment listings, the entire office quiet and dark. This is pointless, I think, scrolling past yet another...

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Apr 24 min read


17. The Exchange
The twins look absolutely miserable. Sure, they’re not exactly angels on the best of days, but seeing them slouched in their chairs...

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Apr 17 min read


16. Three Wishes
“No, Nigel.” I’m typing furiously, messaging with one of McQueen’s underlings. If she thinks having the flu is really going to be enough...

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Mar 315 min read


15. Clink, Clink
I walk into the office Monday morning exhausted and determined. It’s time to put Mission: Protect the Queen into effect. I’ve spent...

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Mar 295 min read


14. Unexpected
More adrenaline junkies should work in publishing, I think as I lean back in my chair, slipping my heels free from the beautiful but...

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Mar 285 min read


13. The Predator’s Game
The elevator doors slide open, revealing the eerily still reception area. Alright, Andy. Crisis mode, engage. With a quick breath, I...

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Mar 274 min read


12. One Step Higher
I wake up and my cheeks hurt. I think I was smiling in my sleep. It’s Sunday morning, and my smile widens before I even open my eyes....

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Mar 57 min read


11. No More Looking Back
My stomach, grumbling loud and actually painful, eventually ends my Survivor marathon of dissociation. I guess it’s time to be a human...

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Mar 34 min read


10. Growing Pains
The phone barely rings twice before my mom’s voice bursts through the speaker. “Oh, Andy! It’s so lovely to hear from you sweetie, just...

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Mar 15 min read
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