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33. Beyond the Curtain
I shouldn’t be surprised the theater is packed on a Sunday afternoon. Still, the crowd is a bit overwhelming. “Mom, can we get popcorn?”...
Cipher
Jul 306 min read
34. The Chill
The first time I got my period post-makeover, I was a mess, emotionally and physically. Miranda can snub my cheap, thrift store clothes...
Cipher
Jul 305 min read
Mother’s Day, 6 Years Later
Dear Mama, Six years ago, I began the most incredible and most painful experience of my life. Six years ago, I waved goodbye to you and...
Cipher
May 112 min read
Because of Her
Matthew McConaughey once said that his hero is “me ten years from now.” While I respect his commitment to growth, I see it differently....
Cipher
Apr 303 min read
Not A Memoir - Can’t Stop, Won’t Stop
If the only way to survive Mormonism and eventually earn the grace-given gifts you were promised is to hustle, there’s no need to worry....
Cipher
Apr 297 min read
Constant Vigilance, and Other Lies
My family has superpowers. No, we can’t fly or lift cars. But honestly? I’d argue our powers are more useful than that. My mom had an...
Cipher
Apr 285 min read
Not A Memoir - Be Ye Therefore Perfect
Clearly, Mormonism offers a lot of epic rewards. You just have to qualify for them. Easy, right? I mean, how much can the Church really...
Cipher
Apr 2717 min read
32. Tinted Windows
Laughing, I shove Doug’s feet out of my face. “Keep that stank to yourself!” “Rude,” he chuckles. But he moves his feet. I keep a wary...
Cipher
Apr 265 min read
31. Warriors
Nigel holds my bag hostage until we’re seated in a little French bistro half a block away from Elias-Clarke. I go to pick up my menu,...
Cipher
Apr 256 min read
30. Coffee, Glitter, Treachery
Miraculously, Lark arrives on time for her first day. Six-thirty on the dot. Of course, I told her six—just in case. So she’s actually...
Cipher
Apr 246 min read
Not A Memoir - Promises, Promises
Religons have an uncanny way of convincing people to act against their own self interests in this life, in order to gain rewards in ‘the...
Cipher
Apr 2314 min read
Council of the Ciphers
Transcript: Council of the Ciphers – April 14, 2025 Setting: A sleek but slightly disheveled conference room in Cipher’s subconscious,...
Cipher
Apr 223 min read
Not A Memoir - Put It On The Shelf
“The Shelf” is a widely used metaphor in Mormonism. Whenever you can’t reconcile an uncomfortable piece of Mormon history, practices,...
Cipher
Apr 215 min read
Not A Memoir - Doubt Your Doubts
I had my first doubts about Mormonism at seven years old. Mostly, these were spurred by the first big decision in a young Mormon’s life:...
Cipher
Apr 206 min read
Not A Memoir - Good Girl
I grew up a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I know. It’s a mouthful. Hence, why most people call us ‘Mormons’...
Cipher
Apr 192 min read
Not A Memoir - Intro
I’ve thought about why I am the way that I am. Not in some ‘woe is me, my life is so hard,’ way. At least, not since my teens, and what...
Cipher
Apr 181 min read
Not A Memoir - Forward
This wasn’t supposed to be a memoir. Honestly, I still don’t think it is. Not in the way most people mean it. I didn’t write this because...
Cipher
Apr 172 min read
29. Exit Stage Left
“Emily.” Emily and I lock eyes across the room. Unless Miranda’s suddenly decided to downgrade me back to wrong-name status, she really...
Cipher
Apr 156 min read
Much Efficiency. Very Oligarchy. Wow.
DM Notes by God, Creator of the Universe, Reluctant Dungeon Master Campaign Title: Now Presenting: The United States of America ...
Cipher
Apr 145 min read
Are Dogs a Tool of the Patriarchy?
A Feminist Reflection on Pets, Labor, and Who Picks Up the Poop Are dogs a tool of the patriarchy? Wait, wait—don’t kill me. Let’s get...
Cipher
Apr 145 min read
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